AC/DC’s Brian Johnson Dealt with Suicidal Thoughts After Axl Rose Replaced Him on Tour in 2016

Brian Johnson had to pull out of AC/DC’s 2016 tour due to hearing issues

AC/DC rocker Brian Johnson felt “something close to despair” after an issue with his hearing forced him to drop out of the legendary band’s 2016 tour and be replaced by Axl Rose.

Johnson, 75, reveals in his new memoir The Lives of Brian that he dealt with suicidal thoughts after he had to leave AC/DC’s Rock or Bust Tour or risk going completely deaf.

“I just didn’t f—ing care anymore. I’d always thought that the best way to go out would be at 180 mph, flat-out around a corner,” Johnson writes, according to American Songwriter. “You’d hit the wall and boom, it would be over, just like that. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t want to die. … I just wouldn’t have minded all that much.

The British star previously told Rolling Stone that his hearing issues were “pretty serious,” and that he was completely unable to hear the tone of the guitars on stage.

In his memoir, he recalls the pain of telling his tour manager that he’d have to sideline himself for the remainder of the tour.

“I called Tim, the tour manager, on my mobile right there in the room to tell him that I just couldn’t continue,” Johnson reportedly writes. “It was one of the most difficult conversations of my life — the pain of it made worse over the weeks that followed when the tour simply went on without me. It was a sheer cliff. I didn’t tumble down, I was in free fall.”

Johnson previously told RS in 2020 that before getting help for his hearing issues, he was “literally getting by on muscle memory and mouth shapes” on stage, and found it “crippling” to be “standing there and not being sure” while performing. He was eventually equipped with a small device that “uses the bone structure in the skull as a receiver,” and was able to return to the stage.

Though AC/DC has not toured since Rock or Bust, Johnson rejoined the band to record the 2020 album Power Up, which reunited the four surviving members of the band — Johnson, lead guitarist Angus Young, bassist Cliff Williams and drummer Phil Rudd. Malcolm Young died in 2017, and his nephew Stevie Young has been playing in his place since 2014.

If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988, text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741741 or go to 988lifeline.org.

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